1 Litre of Tears

okay...slept at like 4am+ today morning. watched 1 litre of tears.

really sad. really sad. cried whole night le. eyes so darn puffy+pain

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really hate the fact that their parents tried to hide aya's sickness away from her.

they say they wish for aya to have a normal life. but i think that they are just plain selfish. they dont want to break the news to aya, they're afraid that aya will change after she knows.

i duno but...if i were aya. i'd want to know the truth. then i'll try my hardest to live my remaining life to the fullest and try to not leave any regrets.

and i think aya's got nice friends. the 2 of them are always willing to help her. even after one of them injured her hands because of aya, she was still willing to stand up for her when the class was discussing about aya's issue. though when the other friend said that it was tiring, it may seems like the friend betrayed aya. but i think it is normal for her to think that. the girl must have missed out alot too, and she must have been very tired. no matter how much she cares for aya, i think that sometimes they really do need a break.

as for the parents or students that wants aya to leave. i think its normal too. because human are born selfish by nature. esp since most of them are the so called elites, they care about studies more than anything.

for me i'd be more than happy if i could miss lessons. but for them, they are most probably aiming for some top schools, which is why they take their studies seriously. and we cannot deny the fact that aya did affect them in some way or another.

another factor that parents are concerned about is that they are afriad that their children would get hurt while helping aya, which proved to be right later. we cant really blame the parents can we?

i'm not saying that what the other classmates and parents did are all right. it is just a matter of what is their priorities. the world is not seperated in black and white, but is in shades of grey.

however for the case of aya's senpai. i think he's such a jerk(even though hes acted out by beloved matsuyama). i mean...he's trying to woo her right. just because he knows she's got some kind of illness, which he didnt even know what illness, he acts like a coward. worst of all, he dont want to be a bad guy. honestly, you are not even interested in her anymore and yet u hesitate to call her to call off the date. yea yea...some may say he's just a high school kid and wouldnt want to take responsibility of someone. but the fact that he's so willing to back out once he realise there's something wrong with the girl, just shows that he was wooing her half-heartedly. he just wanted a good girlfriend, and prolly it doesnt even matter who the girl is so long as the girl meets his criteria. this just shows that he'd be the type to leave his wife if his wife contracted some illness.

anyways..after i slept, and woke up, ended up talking to mum about this drama.

ive always knew that the mentality of me and my mum is very different. after the talk...i was wondering if i am too complex or my mum is too naive. personally, i think its my mum that's too hypocrite.

her actions doesnt match her words. her words of yesterday doesnt match her words of today. she just do and say whatever seems to benefit her more.

anyway, she was saying the drama is too fake. she says no one will ask the girl to leave the school. coz they'd pity her. she said if she were the parents, she'd even ask me to help her. and she crapped about how pityful some people are and we should really help them when they are in need blahblahblah...

and it was the same her, that always told me and my bro to mind our own business, and not try to save others. if ur friends get into fights, run. if u see other people drowning, never try to save them. and so on.

i told her, some of the parents were concerned about their children getting hurt while helping aya. and she crapped about parents would not be so heartless. and that even if get hurt also wont get hurt until very serious, so no big deal.

yup. so this is my mum.

anyway, after that go timah there play pool. in the end i got there 5 mins late, but everyone was later than me=_=. went to shop around. found a damn cool art shop! lotsa nice stuffs:)

pool was fun. but i was too tired to really enjoy myself haha.

then nothing much, go eat, then yq, jt, wh and ys came my house. at first is say wanna drink wine de. then in the end also duno what happened ended up watching documentaries on bermuda triangle. its really mysterious eh? then nothing much le lor haha